It’s not that i don’t like A.G. I actually do like her. she seems so petite , perfect and so suitable for you. The way you swoon over her, the way u express your wish to marry her in the U.S I know it’s all a joke but it kinda hurts because it challenges my competence. today’s lecture was so appropriate, so apt. I finally understood why I am like this.

Truth is, everyone ,but you,

knows.

It’s sad. It’s not that its a ban to play her songs. but the fact that this particular song just happens to bring me to tears every single god damn time I hear it.

I tear, silently inside, under my shades, in my room.

Do you know?

It just describes us so perfectly.

Almost. but maybe never enough…..

how I wish it were better..

is it too late? is it all a lie? I’ve tried one too many times.

I feel like giving up.

all i can say is. it’s not easy.

if u ask me if im happy. i will tell you: no.

heyho, lol im starting to forget i even own a blog. thanks for reminding me joy lol.
Recess weeks’ gon be over tnight and another race will start till end nov. gogo. im still not doing ideally well and i can finally sense the disappointment in my dad’s words. 3.65 niaaa to my aunty. sigh. is gpa rly that impt? anyway presentation on wed n etc. gona be pretty busy soon. all the best to errbody~

Today marks one of my most memoriable days 🙂 To have him tell you you’re the right one.

I feel blessed.

So appreciated and at peace.

I know it has been hard. Take it as a test, take it as a challenge.

we’ll all come out smarter, wiser and everything seems so much clearer.

I thank God, our heavenly father, for his good plan.

The test of galaxy starts from now , a rebirth it seems, fresh and new.

xxx

I dreamt of him the past few nights. I am fine though, but subconsciously, I do not know.

Looking forward to National Day although it is a gentle reminder that school is about to begin. Trying to gear up for the new academic year. I hope everything will be fine… Keeping ma fingers crossed and praying hard for those around me.

Never felt so calm or at peace before, the longing is a side effect, but I am confident we can pull through. Always here for you and always wanting to be the one worthy for you. Keeping the belief in my heart and patiently waiting.

May I find courage and focus in my studies. Don’t want to disappoint anymore.

Till then,

May God Bless all of you ❤

xoxo

When he said bye again. It was like a piercing pen knife slash. When the name D resonates again and again in my head , appearing on my phone. It infuriates me.

Why?

Let it go.

The worst thing is to be reminded of his past be it good or bad.

I know I know.

I just don’t like it.

That’s me being stubborn.

I don’t share my treasured living beings with anyone.

It’s sad to have proven someone wrong time and again. But that’s where we learn where our fault lies. Move on.

Have faith.

when that faith is lost. Then I can truly say, YOU really don’t know me at all.

what makes you happy?

I feel utterly useless and meaningless when I don’t see him. I feel the sense of loss when he isn’t around. Yet with him, it’s a constant surge of guilt lingering behind me, albeit satisfaction for my emotional well being.

My happiness- derived from an individual is pure insanity. How should I alleviate this dissonance?

Distraction?

How does he feel. What does he do when both are apart?

I really wonder.

does he not understand me?

I don’t wanna waste any more of my time esp, when im not adding value to myself.

😦

“The key to succeeding in a relationship is not finding the right person, it’s learning to love the person you found”